rehash

Yes, I do get very angry when I see how people anal retentively analyze me and pick at every single thing.
I feel like I'm being shoved on women again and it pisses me off.
The variable that I'm being judged?
Sharing my vulnerableness.
Realistic setting?
Job application.
Yes, for trying to describe my personality and bridging thoughts of who I am, I am once again being labeled as gay for sharing myself.
Men's egos really can't handle my anger and it really is the men who are desperate for me to be gay.
No, I do not beg. There are times that I really want a white knight and the white knight to make a concrete tangible difference in my life. But, does that really happen? No. The type of men who label me to be gay are the type that before a man helps a woman out, the woman must be the first to be a top notch competitor for him and sacrifice herself at every demand. It really is a tyranny of slave labor. But just because I don't jump to his bark does not mean I am gay.
I really would like to work some things out with a man.
Issue of availability. Issue of a person who sincerely cares and sincerely wants to listen.
In this case, I didn't even care if someone else cared, in this interview I made sure that I am the number one I am looking out for and the real life difficulty of finding and keeping a job. Socialism and Capitalism. Wealthy and unjust pigs within it all.

In this literal situation, it was about a literal job. It had no relation to hooking up with someone, and I am still offended at how people correlate a simple conversation into a full fledged relationship or sexuality. I fucking hate the person doing the math. I fucking hate the "expert" of "science."

Do you want to continue to be a ridculous desperate fool and push me further:
Options:
Who would you prefer to interview you: man ? woman ?
Accuse me of every single psychological counselor I have shared myself with as well.
Just further stupid ridiculous questions in continuing to be sadist about "their expertise in science."

Crystal Clear

The abuse is obvious and despite hatred I still refuse to accept it.
After the hatefully consciously aware, there are still people who are ignorant and deaf to my MIA with Jared Leto as the only exception to the rule

Surprise suprise I don't have the worlds biggest boobs. I don't have big boobs at all. Does that stop me from wanting to be loved? No. Despite the arrogance of women with big boobs, I still say I feel I deserve to be loved as anyone else.

Even with other people I am out of this world incomprehensively disgusted with those that fail to see what I'm out for in a relationship,
~well if boobs fail you should be a perfectionist at giving head~
Some sick fuck people really believe hardcore that women are only meant to be sex objects.

Despite the sick fucks, I really do want to please a man in bed. I don't want to be a prude.

HOWEVER BEING A SEX OBJECT NEVER WAS THE FOUNDATION OF BEING IN A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP.

I don't want to be a nun or of a severely strict religious culture.

I don't want to be a lesbian either.

And no, after further predictable harassment, I don't want an animal either, although some would probably say I should want an animal at this point.

I am so disgusted and repulsed by everyone right now.

I will not back down.

I will not lose to people who argue with my stance.

There will always be tricks. There will probably be people to get away with rape and authoritarianism of degradingly saying that being a sex object is the only option to go.

Yes, I've had my share of flings, but to have a job, to reach a goal, to get places in life, or even keep a man around,

I refuse to earn my way by being a sex object.

Anyone who would accuse me of so, I seriously deny and say those accussers are rigging bullshitters.

So, if I get beat to death,
I really want others to know the real reality of what people get away with: disgusting, corrupt, and real sexist pigs.

So disgusted
so disgusted
so disgusted